38 Weeks and Waiting

My beautiful bump, I love you. And that mesh underwear I love you almost as much. — Bringing sexy back, that’s right ✊🏼♥️✨⁣

⁣Seriously though, I can’t stand the feeling of clothes on my belly right now. I walk around my house in a robe most days or a tee bc well I can. ⁣ ⁣ Last check up said I was 3 cm + 50% effaced — which doesn’t mean much. Other than the contractions I’ve been having since the week of Thanksgiving are actually doing something. Friday night I went two hours 8-10 mins apart + then poof — gone. ⁣ ⁣ And last night at 4am, I had three super strong ones in ten minutes that woke me up out of dead sleep, but completely subsided.⁣ ⁣ Nothing like putting a lady on edge. Am I right?⁣ ⁣ Today I’ve had cramping on + off but no imminent active labor.⁣ ⁣ THIS is simply an example of just how different every experience is. ⁣ ⁣ Some women labor all the stages in one day. Some don’t labor at all bc they have an elective c-section. Some, like me, are a slow burn for the latent phase until active labor strikes. And then there are the women who have some combination of labor + a c-section. It’s all so wild to me.⁣ ⁣ I made a mistake though today. I went down the rabbit hole of Google. Allowing my nerves to get the best of my mind instead of trusting my mantra ‘everything is always working out for me’ ✨⁣ ⁣ Needless to say if you caught my bump story highlights you know exactly what I mean. ⁣ ⁣ So tonight, I’m taking an essential oil bath with lavender + juniper berry to get my mind in check again. And, doing a visualization meditation along with my beautiful Reiki practice to guide myself through the process of everything going smoothly.⁣ ⁣ This is how I course correct + commit to my wellbeing. I’m not perfect + fear creeps up on me, especially when I allow myself to read all the articles about my situation (smh 🤦🏻‍♀️) — word to the wise, don’t do that if you’re expecting at any moment. Hormones are far too prominent for it to serve you.⁣ ⁣ However, I am ready whenever she is + I am excited to hold my girl.

All will work out for both of us. 🙏🏻